So, I was trolling facebook today and I went  on a friends daughters profile. My friend dosent have a profile. So  my friends daughter is friends with my ex fiance's daughter who has a profile. But my exfiance does not have one. I seen that my ex's daughters brother has a picture of him with his mother (my ex). He lives in Mexico. That means she went back to Mexico. Interesting emotions for me. She broke up with me because she thought I was cheating....I was not cheating. But jealouse Latina what can you do. Anyway weve been broke up since about June. On one level I miss her and worry for her. Dont know why I worry. She's safer in Mexico than she'd be here in the U.S. So I feel bad that I couldnt convince her that I wasnt cheating. And I feel bad that I didnt have more money that I could have taken better care of her.Im a loser you know. As I look at this I see how rediculouse my feelings are. Had I been earning  a six figure income it would not had mattered. she wanted to go back to Mexico anyway. Deep breaths and let it all go.

Let me be the first to say "my writing sucks." Thats why I have avoided using this. But You have to start somewhere. I will no longer be the "lazy writer " so many of us are. More like writer wanna be's. Iknow of professional writers and writing is second nature to them. So I am going to make this second nature to me. I have stories in my mind and ideas. You probably wont see them here. This is just a good exersise for me to write and get things off my chest. It took me all morning to find my Blogger account and change my password. I didnt know that google owns this. So ultimatly I didnt even need to change my password. My thought today?. I need to evolve from the single finger typing to real typing. Well it is later than it needs to be for me so I am signing off for now and getting ready for work.